Nirvana is supposedly the ultimate state of peace achieved by extinguishing all ones desires and passions.
I find that I am happiest and feel most fulfilled when I have worthwhile goals and projects that I am working on - things that I feel a passion for. There are a lot of little things, but lately, I've been able to work on preparing myself for a 'project' that I have wanted to do for a very long time - being a father.
I have never wanted to do anything as much as I have wanted to be a father. I can hardly express how excited I am. I know that there will be a lot of work and difficult challenges to deal with, but I'm looking forward to it all.
In a lot of ways I feel like I have been in a bit of a holding pattern for a few years, waiting for this part of my life to begin. I don't think I'm quite ready as far as the accumulation of the gear and other stuff goes. But I'm not really worried about that stuff. That's easy to fix.
I am looking forward to September (the due date - I know, it's just an estimate). I think it will be the best part of my life. Certainly not Nirvana - it'll be much better.